It's Hard

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It’s hard to write when you don’t know what to say. It’s hard to smile when you don’t know if you’re allowed. It’s hard to laugh when you don’t think you deserve to. It’s hard to speak when you question your every word. It’s hard to trust when you lie. It’s hard to be present when all you do is question. It’s hard to be happy when nothing is enough. It’s hard to move on when you caused a mess. It’s hard to help when you’re not the person who is allowed to help anymore. It’s hard to give advice when you’re a hypocrite. It’s hard to be loved when you do not love yourself. It’s hard to reach out to others when you’re lost. It’s hard to change. It’s hard to be loved. It’s hard to be selfish.

It’s easy to stay where you are. It’s easy to blame yourself for everything. It’s easy to stew in guilt. It’s easy to settle. It’s easy to never question. It’s easy to never ask for help. It’s easy to go at it alone. It’s easy to assume. It’s easy to run. It’s easy to tell other people what they should do. It’s easy to think you know what’s right. It’s easy to find fault in others. It’s easy to follow society’s path. It’s easy to fall into and stay in routines. It’s easy to be selfish.

We all have something we are going through. We all question from time to time if we are doing the right thing. Many of us do not want to be seen as selfish while at the same time strive to live a life where we are happy. Internal conflict is going to happen, but just as my buddy Greg once told me, “It does not make it wrong. It just makes it hard.” And you and I can make it through hard, friend.